Fight…

#handmaid’s tale

What’s today, is it yesterday?

Days morph into each other. Is today yesterday or tomorrow? Or is it last week?

I dream of work where I don’t want to be. They are all traitors, liars and used me.

Why do I have to prove I am good, when living among bad people?

Why there is two truths to every story? Or is it three?

I asked for a miracle and saw two house finch birds, red headed?

I hope I’m not hallucinating.

April 12,2023

My pup, Albus!

I am scared and that’s the truth…

That’s it, that’s the post.

It’s the truth.

At this moment, I’m frustrated, scared and lost.

I feel responsible, I feel powerless, I keep screaming at God in my head.

God, are you still there?

April 11, 2023

Four birds, paradise…

Universe, listen to me…

You send me one Brutus after the other,

I don’t know what to do

You made me lost faith in humanity

I don’t know what to do

Wrong side, wrong path, wrong place at wrong time

I’m trying to hold on to little things that are mine…

All I have you is you…

~ April 6, 2023~

I’m lost, again…

Used, again

Hurt, again

Lost, again….

March 31,2023

What next…

Future uncertain

What next?

March 26,2023

Day is not done…

One truth

That cannot hide

Or twisted

Day light

Will shed

Truth will appear…

March 18, 2023

Sigh, breath, sigh…

Frost bitten

My whole soul…

March 14,2023

It’s cold…

Ache in my heart…

Ache in my heart

Where all the tears are stored

It hurts every time I breathe

Tomorrow and tomorrow

I wait

Wait

And wait..,

March 11,2023

All I need is fucking hope…

Will tomorrow be better than today?

This body, this heart, this mind that wanders

I try to be mindful and silent, but they all ponder

A week, gone by, that was faster or was it slow?

All I know, my whole being was like, go go go

Will tomorrow be better than today?

Or would it be just a day full of grey?

March 10, 2023

aurora borealis I saw last year!